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2006-05-29T23:20:00.000-07:00

hihi! today was the first day of my study camp... hahax... today..i was late... im supposed to wake up at 730... but mm woke me up at 745... hahax... so anyway... i met up with him at 755..

when we reached school.. it was damn early.. and no one was there... so me went to toilet and tied my hair... hahax.. i was too late to tie my hair up... hahax... after that we when to class and sharon opened the classroom...

then the first lesson was... maths... then just o through papers... then finish at 10 then just talk about n level.. kinda got stressed up a bit... hahax.... after tat we went for break for half an hour... hahax... then after that is physics.... go do some n level paper...

then after that.. supposed to have social studies class but most of the guys want to escape.. so we just like.. feel like to.. and also the councellors... hahax.... then finally yan han called mr yugin again and he said its cancelled.. yeah! then tmr can go school at 11.. hahax.. gtg.. now... byex
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2006-05-28T16:58:00.000-07:00

today.. was the first day of the holiday and also.. the first day of having a laptop of my own.. hahax... im so happy about it!!

anyway.. today was the first day holiday as i said it just now.. i was supposed to be in school now.. going for mylibrary duty... but..nah.. i chose not to because... im very lazy... and also.. im going to funan later to collect some free gifts for buying this laptop... wee~~ im so the happy.. and my printer probelm have finally been solved... i just then realised that my pencil was inside the paper slot.. hahax..silly me...

so anyway... tomorrow im having the study camp at school and i cant really play computer a ot this month as i must use most of the time to study for my n level.. that is so not me.. hahax... oh yarh.. my result for the mid year was well.... okay? cox i did quite well for my maths for the paper itself.. but with me failing two common test.. it somehow pulled me down... and i got only c5 for it... well.. not for maths only but also for all my subjects except for my malay... hahax... which got an a2.. thank od my common test pulled me up.... hahahx..

s.. this june holiday. i have to go do some studying too... maybe i could finish up my maths tys? thats quite good and buy more books which had notes in them rather than spending on accesories... haha.. so till then.. syonara... hahax. ill try to update this blog whenever im free kiex? free from not playing co.. wahahahaha.....

2006-05-17T20:03:00.000-07:00

hihi... its been so long since ive last update... ive been busy studying for exams and also leveling up my warrior and taoist.. hahax.. well.. ive been playing this game called conquer online.. with my dear daniel.. hahax...i had fun playing that game.. so anyway..
im having holiday now.. until today.. last day of my holiday.. then tomorrow is normal school.. and also result day.. gonna get results for all my subject tomorrow..
i kinda flunk my social studies and i think my chemistry too... my history.. i kinda lost 10 marks.. hahax.. my other subjects.. well.. most of it i can do.. so thats good news right?
well... i gtg.. byex!

2006-04-11T16:33:00.000-07:00

hihi!! what the hell.. im multi tasking... haha!

let me go blog first before he does... yeah! he finally online! im like so totally happy! hahax... anyway... i cried! just now... [[ happy now? i wrote in my own blog ]]

well.. its kinda stupid.. cox actually because its been a few months he like dont buy prez for our anniversary.. so im sad... like.. when we first stead.. he always buy things on tym... and doesnt delay it.. but now.. tis like he dont have time for mie like that.... so.. i sad and i cried.. okayy enough.. not going to continue about it...

anyway.. what happened today was well.. kinda fun.. cox we we had 3 periods of free period! yeah! that is... 1 and 1/2 hr of free period.. haha... then after dear's maths lesson.. he sat with mie and well... without realising it.. we were holiding hands under the table... haha! and well... since he cant tickle me for htis week... he seem to be having fun making me blushed! haha! and i go around and poking him all i want! but i just simply hate nxt monday because he's gonna take revenge...

and yeah! nxt week is napfa test.. that totally sux... after the day of the 5 stations.. im gonna like suffer because of cramps... why issnt it on the 25 april? that was when the two of us finally stead... five stations,before he went for tuition.. i told him i like him!! hahahahaha!!

anyway.. its gonna be another 2 more weeks to my 1st year anniversaryy and i simplyy cant waitt!! yeah!!

btw.. me and my friends still not talking... so..... nah.. heck care them.. im so enjoying this days with the guyssssss~!! gtg.. byex!!

2006-04-07T00:27:00.000-07:00

hey.... its been quite a while since ive last updated...

hmm... the recent event that happened this week is well.. i fight with my friends... nah dont want to think about it now.... now.. im just hanging out and chilling out with the guys.. i mean really with guys.. they were great.... most of the time.. but sometimes they chooose to bully me as i was the only girl there.... but on other thoughts.. it was fun...

anyway... today is international friendship day... i've made friendship bands for my dear dearr... haha.... balck and blue strings... he love black.. and i love blue... so..... ive made him that friendship band.. he told me he still kept the last year's one which i gave and made it for him too.... that is in black and white...

hmm... today.. is friday... lol.. duh?! and the lesson's today are can say quite boring but except for chemistry because i can sit with daniel during lesson.... we sort of had a small argument just now... but we okay alreadyy... then during recess lesson.. yaoye go put up the names of the prize winners for the speech day.. and you know what? i was choosen.. at first i dont believe it when daniel told me i was in... so i see it myslef and there it is.. my name.... the best performance in malay.. lol... haha... thats the only subject which i can easily pass.. i hope... haha...

and after school... went lunch with dear daniel at kfc and we shared a popcorn chicken meal... haha... he wants to feed me.. but i was way to shy.. haha... and we walked back to school and he then decided to go for ncc.... while me.... i have to attend this prize taking thingy at the hall... we were only asked to take the attandance and then can go home... it was like totally waste of time... then after that.. i was walking out of the hall when i realised that the ncc was just downstirs... and i was well.. searching for my dear daniel of course.... i was searching and searching for him until i didnt realised i was at the endof the stairs... it was kinda embarrasing...haha.... but no matter how much i looked at daniel... he didint seem to realise that i was looking at him...

then okay... now im at home blogging while he is outside rehearsing for speech day... how sad... later at around 6 plus... im going to meet him again! yeah... its because of this parent teaching meeting.. and there's a talk about n and o level which all the sec 4s and 5 have to attend.... if its not ompulsory.. i wouldnt have to go right? but... hmm... later i think im going school with him if he finishes his ncc earlier... that will be later... around 545 like that... thats all for now... bye!

2006-03-29T23:25:00.000-08:00

its been quite some time since i've last updated my blog... kinda lazy and stressed! yeah stressed... haviing so many problem this days.. waiit.. i dont think its this days.. its this month...
its been the worst month ive ever had... because.........

after the one week of school holiday.. on that monday that is on "20 march"... i was having an arguments with daniel... because of tis stupid thomas... and thats why the both of us had the WORST argument EVER!! we never did fight that lasted for a few hours... that is totally suckx!
and the next day... the both of us ACTED as if we broke up... and thats such a difficult thing to do... and well... thomas did not want to even admit that its his fault... and he kept denying it...
we continue acting for a few days....

after that incident... there's another accident that i think that happened the day after... or issit last tuesday?"28 march".. no i think its last week... anyway... we sort of caught up with an argument again... about mie hanging out with the guys in my class when i myself having problems with my friends... he sort of jealous with it... i understand.. cox the two of us were born the same month but just a difference of one day... around less than 24 hours..
so anyway.. he got a bit jealous as i was laughing with them and talking and stuff...so.. thats how the argument starts.... but at least it only lasted less than an hour or somehting?

and today... there's this thing... since yesterday... i felt so left out... whenever im with my friends... that is so hurting... its like im not exist there! they talked among themselves.. im the odd one out there and its so hurting when i got noone to talk too... what are friends when they kept talking and saying bad things about miie even if it was meant to be a joke? that hurts miie!

and not only that which adds to my stress... there's till family probelem.. haix...
dont wanna talk about it.. now on the fone with daniel... hehehe...

2006-03-10T17:01:00.000-08:00

today... is the last day of school... well.. not really the last day of school for the year.. its just the last day of school for term 1..

next week will be the holiday break... well.. its only for one-week... and its really not like you can do much things in this one week of holiday... since there's n level this year... i have to go to school for 2 days during this holiday... monday for my library duty and thursday for my social studies class...

anyway... there are also homeworks to be done.. like comprehension for english and source based qn for social studies... that is just so sian... well.. tomorrow... my class are having a class outing at sentosa... well.. how i wish i could go.. but unfortunately.. cant... obviously parents cant allow right? i really htought of going with my classmates and enjoy myself and also going against my parents.. but... nah... i decided not to... i will now try my best to listen to whatever they say and try to obey them.. (well.. also sometimes.. there's always a lie after school :) )

anyway.. thats all i can say for now... about me and daniel.. well.. we are totalyy fine.. ater having sort of an argument last 2 days... feel so bad about it... but other than that... everything is back as per normal... and we are like so totally cant wait for our 1st year together.. that is next month... *25 april 2005*

2006-02-15T01:09:00.000-08:00

hey... kinda l0ng since ive last update my bl0g... currently chatting with my ex b0ifriend that is n0w can c0nsider my friend.. haha~! n0 0ffence dear.. just friend!

anyways.. t0day we had a great day.. well.. it is after sch00l but n0t during sch00l time... lets just talk ab0ut the after sch00l.. well.. me and daniel decided to g0 jp as f0r 0ur s0-called "h0neym00n".. hahax... we're just "married" 0n the 9 0f feb... hahax..
anyways... went t0 jp.. and t00k bus 240 with shar0n,bama,nandhini and th0mas... 0h yarh. th0mas gave me a d0g.. as valentine gift.. haha! erm.. and then... g0 jp... i sit with daniel of c0urse...

then reached jp... went t0 p0pular.. and then chamel0n... and then... erm.. value sh0p... then we decided t0 g0 t0 japan h0me t0 buy th0mas prez and went t0 eat at banquet after that.. well... dear blanja me... he said it's a valentine day treat 0r s0mething like that... then we went h0me.. hahax... we had a great time....

anyway.. yesterday was valentine day.. and class got this event 0f exchanging gifts... i have t0 buy prez f0r lee sheng... and.. yarh my friends and als0 my hubby... well... i b0ught dear a last min gift.. not i buy one lar... nandhini buy... n dear actually make me this jewelerry set 0f bracelet and earings.. its s0 damn nice!! hahax... well.. gtg n0w.. wann change skin~!

2006-01-31T00:00:00.000-08:00

finally.... tomorrow going to start school after 4 days of holiday.. its kinda bad you know? well.. simply because....
school=study=homeworks=tests=stress... thats the disadvantages...
the advantages are that: school=get to hang out with my clox friends and most importantly... get to be with dear~!
talking about my dearest dear.. he's still not back in singapore yet.. kinda annoy me you see? i think he is having fun there and left me alone here... always thinking of him 24/7.. just wondering if he do the same thing as i did...
anyways.. tomorrow gonna start school.. so just hope to meet him tomorrow..
got to go now... byex~!!

2006-01-27T19:37:00.000-08:00

school holidays for straight 4 days.. c00ol! cny holidays... missing dear.. he went to overseas and left me alone here in singapore... hahax... not alone.. at least here with my parents.. :)

bought BLACK jeans and white blouse! hahax.. anyways.. school is great.. with all the sorts of homeworks... hahax... thats great.. and you know what? i've made a great improvement... hahax... i had b3 for argumentative essay.. isnt that great? im beginning to love english!! ENGLISH ROX!! and the bad news is that im begiinning to hate P0A! because simply i suck at it! haha! without my tuition.. cnat really survive to get an a1 or at least a b3 in poa! lol!

well.. my other subjects.. hmm..kinda okay i guess... physics... lessons are interesting with mr Lim teaching us! he's great! oh ya! i suck at history too.. cant understand what greater germany and what other craps about czechoslovakia... idiotic.. the class are really uninteresting! haha..my other subjects.. hmm... yarh.. chemistry! with the tweety-bird granny teaching us.. she speaks so damn... "LOUD".. haha! anyways.. just hope my other subjects should be fine... need to improve my english.maths.chem.phy.his. and most importantly..P0A!!! .

thats all for now folks! missing dear~! byex!!

2006-01-19T01:37:00.000-08:00

went to singapore polyy open house today..with bama.farah aand sharifah... we stopped by at chamelon to buy some new ear studs.. hahax..

anyways.. singapore poly..its so bigg... nearly get lost.. haix... lets just ignore the haix.. aiming to go to accounting course... average score point is... L1R4 is 18.. i have to go study and get at least less than 18... well.. hurt dear's feelings...

not in the modd to talk now... not going to forgive myself... ....

2006-01-15T23:40:00.000-08:00

hey! you know what? here i am... in the school library.. supposed to do my library duty.. but since the the teacher is not around.. anyways..

todayy... i have to go home ALONE! and thats the problem... you know why? daniel got scolded by his ncc teacher because he never went to chingay for the past few days... i told him to go but he didnt listen to me... haix... anyways... today i cant go home with him... and you know what? i think he asked his friends to find for me and told me that he have to go chingay and he's sorry about it... isnt that sweet? hahax... i sent a note to him saying that he should take kare and sms me back when he gets home... haix... i love him.. and muacks! hahax... i really pity on him.... just hope he is really fine... haix...

just read dear's blog.. and the band member says that dear havent heard another side of the story... haix... im just scared now that if they actually told dear the 0THER side of the story.. will dear believe me or believe them? haix...

anyways... i got to go now before my library teacher come... so... signing off now... just hope that dear believe me and not themm!!!

2006-01-13T00:25:00.000-08:00

heyy! its been a bad day for me eventually...

as you would know.. today is FRIDAY the 13th... many people think its bad on this day... and you know what? i totally agree with it.. you want to know why? because of that someone... she spoiled me and my friends mood... DAMN!
well.. this is what happened:

after recess.. me and my other 4 friends sat at the benches outside our class studying social studies... they say that there's social studies test on chapter 7...
and so... we read our books QUIETLY! we kinda talk somehow but.... its QUIETLY.. not shouting or something... then we chatted and the bell rang... KRIINGG!!! and so.. we still chat and sat there QUIETLYy... so okie.. after a few minutes after the bell rang... this teacher... named: MDM RANI.. went out of her class and started "sort of" shoutiing... and she said: i dont want to see you here next friday after the bell rings..." then.. okie.. me and my friends went back to class... then she came to our class and repeat the same thing... she nag nag and nag until my subject teacher .. that is: mR YUGIIN! then that rani or some people called her the PARROT... says that..if she saw anyone along the corridor next week.. she gonna book that people... and so.. after she left... my teacher.... MR YUGIN... came inside class.. and asked... "WHo was outside the classroom just now?" and so... i admit.. i was the first one... and my other friend admit tooo... and you know what he say? "ALL THE ONE WHO IS OUTSIDE GET ONE YELLOW FORM" i was like... what the fuck?
he just like.... so sudden... he didint know anything and he just gave us the yellow form... its not fair! its not fair! its not fair! its not fair!!! ITS NOT FAIR!
me and my 4 friends got one yellow form each... we got it because we didnt do anything wrong!! damn!!

and the lessons after recess... we got so sad about it... expecially me.. i was like.. so damn upset.. and i didnt even talk in class... nandhini too was dissapointed... i cried abit during lesson... and after a while... bama cheered us up... we sort of wrote a vow that we took revenge of that yugiin! hahax.... well... bama said that the pass is a past.. so.. might as well forget it... but for me.. forget it? noway... its so hurts me! i did nothing and we were so damn quiet and she scolded us and that yugin gaf us yellow form!!! damn!!! i hate itt!! and you know what? we are not the only one outside the class.. and that parrot!! only nag at our class! how can she!! HATE HER~! HATE YUGIIN!! after schooll... i cried on sharifah's shoulder!! cant take it anymore... dear was there and he didnt do anything... hahax...

damn... then thats not all... band memebers go dirty dear's blog... he has nothing to do with this!! haix.... they shouldnt dirty my dear's blog too.... he's nto involved!! well.. for now they are quiet... they stop talking about me... but there's some i think.. haix.. i hate itt..... i got too much stress!! enough of studies and now this stupid stuff with yellow form...
haix... kinda being pressured... aiming to get 3 points to get to sec 5... i try! i must try... well.. i gtg now.. going to sheng siong... byex!

to dear: im sorry i dint speak to u or anyhting... i meeting u tmr aite? cant sms.. sowiex... lurve eu lotx! makan kalau blum~! me gg but smth to eat wit my dad... take kare.. lurve eu alotx! muacks!!

birthdayy partyyy~!!

2005-12-24T18:17:00.000-08:00

hey!!! hey! hey! heyy!!

u kn0w what? t0dayy is dearr's birthdayy.. hahax.. happy birthdayy t0 hiim..
and als0.. n0t f0rgetting.. t0dayy is 0ur 8th m0nth anniversaryy... l0lx.. its g0ing t0 b an0ther b an0ther 4 m0nths t0 0ut 1st yearr t0getherr... cant wait.. cant waitt.. cant waitt!!

l0lx.. s0 s0wie.. im s0 damn sia0! yesterdayy was s0 fun! c0x dear was the first 0ne t0 come.. and it was s0 greatt .. alth0ugh m0st 0f my friends cantt make it.. a bit dissapointing s0meh0w.. but 0ther than thatt.. it was great! r0hanii came with farihin.. hahax... we t00k a picture t0gether.. wanna see it?

hahax... then i night.. i 0pened the present.. it was s0 damn greatt.. i 0pened every present... dear b0ught me this.... sweetest..
kiutestt...
r0mantic..
nicestt prezent... its this....
peerfume! and it smells so damn nice!! 0h my! hahax...

my br0 and sis b0ught me make-up set and stuff! its s0 nice!! i l0ve itt!!

thiss was the besttest birthdayy ever!!!!!!!!!

hatiing myselff.....

2005-12-22T20:41:00.000-08:00

heyy.. its been quite a long time since i lastt update right? well... nothingg...

anywayss... tomorrow is my birthdayy parttyy... and i feel like.. no one seems so excitedd aboutt it.. exceppt me.. i know that sometime i can be pathetic.. but.. i mean its true... no one does... maybe they did.. but justt to make me happyy... so... whats the use right? everybodyy is busyy doingg their own stuff... and they dont seem to give me justt a lil bit of attention.. justt for this month? haix.. i dont know...

i feel like... i always make people irritatedd... expecially dear.. i know im being selfish... i am selfish... but... argh! i dont know... i need helpp for now... dear is busyy with his stuff... and the last few dayss.. i hardlyy chat with him in msn.. well.. yarh.. he's busyy of course.. but what i can do right? he doenst belongs to me completelyy... i justt wish i couldd talk to someone aboutt this... since dear is so busyy with his workk.. he's like ignoring me...

i dont know.. my parents... haix.. doesnt give me the freedom and privacyy... even though im going 15.. i really am jealous because mostt of my friends can go outt with their friendss... go shopping and watching movie together... how i wish my life is like them... why cant my parents give the freedom? because of what i did last time? fine if they dont trust me... but at least.. give me privacyy... i know that they want me to be safe... but... i feel so... stuckedd at home...

even if i can go outt... i alwayss go out with my parents... isnt it the same? because evrytime i want to buy something.. i have to use my moneyy... so. .why cant they just let me go out with my friends? i cant understand them nowadays... i know that i still rely on them.. but at least give me some freedom? justt a bit of it? i wantt to be like my friends... even my dear has freedom sometimes... unlike me.. who always is stuck at home during the holidays... how i wish i could go studyy with my friends... i realised that i felt so terrible this year..

i cant even get a job next year... why cant i? argh! i feel so stressed... this thing is inside me... and i dont wantt to tell anyone aboutt this because... i dont want them to lnow aboutt this.. everybodyy got their problems.. so.. its just sometime.. problems are just left to be it is.. not to be solved..

behind my smiles and laughter... inside my heart.. nobody knows... nto even dear.. i dotn want him to know aboutt it... i too want the truth.. i hate people telling lies.. just simply because they want to make me happy.... i hate thatt! i try my veryy bestt to control my sensitivityy... but cant anyone understand how hard it is to? i dont know...... i just simply hate myselff....

2005-12-18T22:42:00.000-08:00

heyy there.... yah00! finalyy new com! hahax.. damn fastt... a million times better than the oldd 0ne...

anyways... my birthdayy partty g0nna be thiis saturdayy!! i cant waiit!! hahax.. and dear's birthdayy is justt the nextt dayy of myy birthdayy partyy... hahax... i wish i couldd give him a birthdayy bash.. but too bad.. parents will be at home...
[sorry dear if u're readiing thiis.. hahax.. justt wanna have funn. . ]

anyways... just now..wentt out witth mum! its damn nice! went shopping for bothh skool and myselff.. hahax... school goingg to startt soon ... its goiing to be like in 2 weeks time? when school reopens... means have to do damn serious studyyiing... n level getting near.. haix.. kinda scared...
i really wishh i couldd make itt...

anyways... wentt shopping witth mum... wentt to jurong eastt popularr buy stationeryys... todayy kinda spentt aboutt.. 35 buckss.. kinda alott.. hahax.. kinda broke now... hahax

anywayss.. me gtg now... byex!

2005-12-16T22:45:00.000-08:00

heyy ..its been quite sometime since i lastt blog.. kinda lazyy...

anywayyss.. finally got thatt hair stylerr.. dad brought it for me yesterdayy.. hahax... tried it a few times.. and i just like to use on my fringe to make it straight.. hahax... so. .maybe first dayy of skool.. hopefully can wake up early and go straighten myy fringee....

yeah.. my birthdayy partyy is justt nextt week! me cantt waitt.. cant waitt..cantt waitt..cant waitt.. hahax.. im kraziee.. pr0bablyy because me miss dearr s0 much! hahax..

afterr my birthdayy partyy... the next dayy is my dear's birthdayy and.. 0ur 8th m0nth! s0 l0ngg the ade! hahax.. 0kiex..

me gtg n0w. .g0nna playy rs! hahax.. byex!~

2005-12-10T01:25:00.000-08:00

hey y0~!!

finally new blogg.. just want to cahnge to a new 0ne b0cx 0f s0me pe0ple... sh0uld i menti0n name? well.. yarh i sh0uld.. after all this is my bl0g right? well. .th0se pe0ple are NAFISA.FATIMAH AND YAQI...
these type 0f pe0ple sh0uld n0t b in this w0rld.. they sh0uld b dead..

anyways.. i d0nt hink i sh0uld be wasting time talking ab0ut them in my new bl0g.. hahax... well.. anyways.. birthday party c0ming! cant wait! h0pe m0st 0f my friends can c0me! anyways.. its exactly 2 weeks fr0m n0w... then the next day... its my 8th m0nth with dearr and his birthday.. hahahax.... cant wait... well..

neways.. new bl0g means new me... well.. maybe... haha.x.. gtg n0w! byex!!